February 10, 2014
I am a total wreck today. Emotions are way out of control. My tough skin is taking a beating and I fear I will be black and blue for a while.
I have an audition today for what could be my first national commercial. So, naturally, I am excited and nervous.
Mostly though I am sad and disappointed.
I'm not going into any details. Suffice to say that I learned a hard but valuable lesson this past week. It's a lesson every actor should learn because, sadly, the truth is, this is a crazy, fickle, insanely unfair industry.
Being a talented, professional actor will only get you so far in this business.
I've experienced that first hand.
In the end, it doesn't matter how reliable you are or how talented you are or how nice you are or...you getting the point? It doesn't seem to matter if you are never late for your call times or are a good listener. It's the fact, Jack.
Doesn't seem fair, does it?
You get the part because you look the part. I'm sure there are exceptions to the rule but I haven't experienced that yet. Casting is tricky. I can totally see why some people get the roles they do and then there are other times when you shake your head and ask: 'Who's nephew is that?'
It's a kick in the balls really to know that the guy 'with the right look' is going to step right on top of you and move to the front of the line. My balls are hurting right now and the challenge I have is to move on and take on new challenges. I'm going to try very hard to not beat myself up too badly and tell myself there are better things in store for me. I'm going to try and tell myself there is work for guys who are over 6'1 who don't really have a look.
'Good luck with that!' says that annoying little voice in the back of my head.
See!
That's the shit that's killing me!
The self-doubt is crushing me right now. I'm not going to put the blame on anybody else. This is all on me. I hate that but it's the truth.
I will channel the anger and sadness and frustration and self-doubt into positive, forward steps to something better. I'll file all that bullshit away and use it, the way actors do, sometime down the road.
For now...
I'm going to do my best to keep it reel.
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I am a total wreck today. Emotions are way out of control. My tough skin is taking a beating and I fear I will be black and blue for a while.
I have an audition today for what could be my first national commercial. So, naturally, I am excited and nervous.
Mostly though I am sad and disappointed.
I'm not going into any details. Suffice to say that I learned a hard but valuable lesson this past week. It's a lesson every actor should learn because, sadly, the truth is, this is a crazy, fickle, insanely unfair industry.
Being a talented, professional actor will only get you so far in this business.
I've experienced that first hand.
In the end, it doesn't matter how reliable you are or how talented you are or how nice you are or...you getting the point? It doesn't seem to matter if you are never late for your call times or are a good listener. It's the fact, Jack.
Doesn't seem fair, does it?
You get the part because you look the part. I'm sure there are exceptions to the rule but I haven't experienced that yet. Casting is tricky. I can totally see why some people get the roles they do and then there are other times when you shake your head and ask: 'Who's nephew is that?'
It's a kick in the balls really to know that the guy 'with the right look' is going to step right on top of you and move to the front of the line. My balls are hurting right now and the challenge I have is to move on and take on new challenges. I'm going to try very hard to not beat myself up too badly and tell myself there are better things in store for me. I'm going to try and tell myself there is work for guys who are over 6'1 who don't really have a look.
'Good luck with that!' says that annoying little voice in the back of my head.
See!
That's the shit that's killing me!
The self-doubt is crushing me right now. I'm not going to put the blame on anybody else. This is all on me. I hate that but it's the truth.
I will channel the anger and sadness and frustration and self-doubt into positive, forward steps to something better. I'll file all that bullshit away and use it, the way actors do, sometime down the road.
For now...
I'm going to do my best to keep it reel.
Copyright 2014
All Rights Reserved
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