"Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow.
The important thing is not to stop questioning."
~Albert Einstein
Yeah. It's me.
I guess I had something to say.
I've been down the last few weeks. Down. Really down. So down the toilet in the house flushed in the other direction.
I guess when it comes down to it, this business called acting kicked my butt. I had several rejections all within a couple of days and the pain and emptiness I was experiencing consumed me. Swallowed me whole! Like a whale noshing on krill.
It hurts. Being told you're not good enough...you're not right for the part...you're too old...you're too tall..you're too...too...it hurts. It's hard not to take it personally and my usually resilient armor plating failed me.
There are facts about me I can't change:
I'm 6'3. That's not going to change until I'm in my 70's and I begin my little old man shrinking.
I have a 38 inch waist and wear a size 12 shoe. I could probably lose a pound or two but as long as the world keeps producing cookies, it'll be a tough battle.
I'm 50. I think you know my response to that. Next year that number will change.
I have a great deal to offer. Mostly my talent and professionalism. I would say heart, but it's far too easy to invest that particular organ to this business and get it stomped on and kicked aside.
Nothing will deter me from doing what I love to do.
As much as I feel as if certain forces are conspiring against me, I will be a working actor. I'm not interested in fame. I just want to work and grow as an actor. I want to be the best I can be. I want to work with people who want to work with me and share those electric, positive, collaborative vibes we all crave.
Like a tiger...a racing car passing by...I'm having a ball.
There's no stopping me
So don't even try.
Just keeping it reel...and positive...and pointed straight ahead.
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At least you're doing something about it, putting your face (and your body) out there where someone can take a look. Some of us haven't even gotten that far in our dream of marrying our passion to our livelihood. Some of us are so terrified of rejection that we are cowering in our little caves, afraid to see the light of day, promising ourselves that one day, we'll have the courage to step outside to see the sun, like you did.
ReplyDeleteWe're proud of what you've done, ya big galoot! You're an inspiration!!
And we still can't wait to see your next book ... 'cause you is one funny man!