NO

"I don't think actors should ever expect to get a role, 

because the disappointment is too great. You've got to think of things as an opportunity. An audition's an opportunity to have an audience."

Al Pacino

There's been a lot of rejection this week. I feel like a guy who was mismatched in a prize fight and got his ass handed to him. Not in a box with a pretty bow like you would want your own ass handed to you, but in a weary brown paper bag that's seen way too many school lunches. 

It's a little more than I can bare at the moment and I am crushed by the weight of it. 

I don't know what else to say. I've always promised this blog, if anything, would be honest. 

The truth is I don't have anything to say. 

I'm just going to be still and not say a word and look at the world and see what the wind tells me to do. I would listen to my heart, but at the moment, it's a little broken and I can't trust what it's saying. 

This is my last post for a while..or for how ever long it takes.

I'm not going to write just to write and make you read things that don't make any sense. 

So, thanks for reading what I've posted so far.

Thanks for your time and support. 

As always...I'm just keeping it real. 

Cheers!

j.e. matter